Incandescence

Light. It gave me pain constantly.
Why I didn't know. Maybe i was bit more used to darkness. Or maybe darkness found some use for me. Constantly banishing me to darkness by the very same people whom I loved most. Maybe this darkness made me feel better. Everything was painted in pitchblack. All the world's misery and all the world's vice was brilliantly hidden by this shade. I too was well hidden inside. A perfect camouflage. And who bothers to gaze into the darkness so as to find a human form. Bit by bit, i'm getting consumed by this never ending oblivion. Yet a small desire to see a tinge of bright light. There i began the quest for light. All i could find was more and more darkness. I surpassed the very same roads and the ery same turns. It may seem strange for a vermin like me to search for light despite the hatred i had towards it. Something was driving me forward, as to which direction i was moving, i didnt know. And when all hopes ceased i was dazzled by a shimmering glow far up in the infinity. Oblivion never had a horizon. But it was never pulling me back from going forward to that etherial glow. It was magical. Kind of a medicine to my wounded heart. I was driven forward to that distant glow. But the more i walk, the more it moved away from me. As if it was running away from me. At some point of time i was cursing the moment i felt like chasing the light. Now it seemed that i had no other choice other than to follow it. It took energy out f my body and my soul, leaving me lethargic. Yet my feet kept me moving. There was no looking back. But this incandescence, why do i feel that this light is tricking me. I couldnot stop chasing. I felt somewhere in my heart that if i hold on to the trail, someday I'll catch it. But in the mean time, i felt a bleak fear groaning inside me, that if I quit, I'm going to perish. Like a rat stuck in a maze i'm still chasing the Incandescence afraid to stop.